Year to forget? Remember?

Well, it's been a year since I last Blogged. In that time my husband finished building our dream caravan in July, but he also lost his five year long battle with Prostate Cancer in January this year. He was able to teach us all many lessons over that period, and the most important was to never give up, always take responsibility for your health, and to die with humour and dignity.

Despite him struggling with Cancer, he managed to finish this beautiful van after 2.5 years of stop/start progress. There were weeks when he was just too sick or despondent to work, or things just did not coincide with other trades needed during the building process. He finished it on 3rd July 2009 and we registered it 8th July after many frustrations with red tape - it being a custom built van and home built - it didn't fit in any of the boxes!!

In August we took it for a shake down run during his birthday weekend to Fingal Beach on the Tweed, and although it towed like a dream, it needed different tyres, and side walls onto the awning to give us some weather protection.

During August we made ready for the Gympie Muster Music Festival, and had 10 great days away with a group of friends, catching some great shows and soaking up the atmosphere of a huge music festival held in the middle of a forest.

After that, we only had one more trip away and that was to Emerald end Sep/Oct for our grand-daughters 18th birthday.

I can't really talk much about the time that followed leading up to the end - it is still too painful, but one day I will.

Something a beautiful young friend wrote to me after me writing to her about my feelings and how sometimes I felt as though I was out of control and needed to get A GRIP:

"You turned a page in the book which is your life. In was a very unpleasant one and the memory of it will linger forevermore. Nobody can feel the same as you did while you were "living" that chapter with your best friend in the universe, so they cannot make you feel what you are not ready for. I don't think you need to get a grip, I think you need to let yourself go and shed the pain which is still so big. Not forever, not for "gone", just for manageable. Start a new chapter but forevermore remember the love which helped you write the first one in your book"